yeah, it hurts.

im sorry i ever fell in love with you.
this wasnt supposed to happen.
i dont know why. but i do. i really really do.
i know you cant love me back.
cause i know she loves you.
and i know you love her too.

this sucks. definitely.
but, there's nothing i can do.
i cant change anything.
all i can do is tell you how i feel, but im not saying that you should feel the same way.
we can never be together.
that's the cold, hard truth.
why is it this way?

*sigh*

im sorry for what happened last saturday.
you weren't supposed to know.
now, i cant even talk to you without fidgeting because i know you know.
and what made it worse was that during those times when i became an a**,you were the one who was with me. guarding me. taking care of me.
this is so embarrassing!!
why does it have to be you?!
it wasnt supposed to be you.
it was supposed to be him!
but then..
i dont know what happened next.

arghhh.. man!
im so confused!
should i love you? or should i stop?
i cant make a decision!
seeing you everyday makes it so much harder.

everytime i look into your eyes, you know what it feels like?
yeah, it hurts. ;s


_wongee

crazy.

what the hell was i thinking?
i thought i could take it. but then i thought wrong.
i knew it wasnt right, but why couldnt i stop?
why did it have to taste so good?
tsktsktsk.
because of that stupid decision, i made a lot of things that i regret now.
i cant even talk to him without being uncomfortable around him just because i had to spill it out.
why couldnt i just not have spilled it out?!
arrghh.
i am so pissed with myself.

-wongee